Joonam

In the loving Memory of:

Kavous Cyroos

Jun 1922 - Sep 2006

Letter to baba joon

Baba joon, for days and days the thought of you has been keeping me occupied.

I never realized how much I loved you and you loved me until you were gone. Being the last but one child and your third daughter, I never felt that special bonding with you.

I was always very close to my mum but with you, there was a distance. Once mum was gone, things started changing a little. However it was only when I stayed with you for a whole year in 2002 that I really started to appreciate your presence in my life.

With you as my pillar of support then, I was able to get help for Yasmin. The love you poured to Yasmin and Zara was such a blessing. My girls have become a lot richer as a result and your fond memories will remain with them forever.

I know your heart was always filled with content. You were thanking G~d daily for the miracle of my mum in your life. Even after she was gone you prayed daily for her departed soul with so much love!

You were grateful for having a son followed by four daughters. To you girls were like butterflies floating around both you and mum.

Looking back I think I was not the butterfly you hoped for, unlike my sisters. The feeling of guilt that I was not special for you in any way still haunts me! In the last ten years of your life, all I contributed to you was grief and heartaches.

I know you suffered greatly seeing me in the arms of a husband you did not call a man... Bringing up my children in a loveless environment and treating them way short of what they truly deserved.

You must have been praying hard day and night for me, because as soon as you were gone, my marriage fell apart and so was my old habits!

All I now think is to make you proud of me in your after life. I like to see a big smile on your face looking down on us and saying now this is my girl!

Please continue your blessings from the heaven above for the three of us.

...LOVE you so so SO much and I hope you will be in peace knowing that I have come home at last!

Your daughter Narges